Love & love 2

 Then we sang and danced tired, can not waste a package large room. LG hold me tight, his head attached to my shoulders, as if tired of the way. We both jumped up three three two, when I lift beginning, He Ping, the eyes can see, do not know how, I am not with him on the TV, just met, I look away.
between me and him, and some ambiguous, but we are all sensible people. where perspective, we can not substantiation.
the weekend, took place between me and LG. I do not want to say today, he suddenly very hot, that has a bad mood? you are not very happy tonight it? then forced almost half the state, to,,, LG was put into the day, almost all night tangled up, I am somewhat confused about his ideas. men really think animals are lower body? love and lust can be separated from you ?
in my memory, probably only this time, I woke up in LG's arms, I suddenly realized that returning to the well-being. a close look at him, as some more weight loss, LG skin is a very healthy black uniform, I have not noticed the right side of his lower jaw has a small scar, I touch here and touch there, as if everything is fresh, he was woke me up, and half open eyes looked up at me and then lay down heavy, rolled over, put a cross on me legs, I have been his whole person tightly in his arms. He whispers like a child: , tired ...say hi. he lowered his eyelids Enleyisheng. suddenly we can not speak.
the elevator door opens, he has long legs and a step to impressive advances. .... my heart did not grace mumbled.
do not know I was not suspicious, one morning he continued to pick my problems, even to the big F denounced me. I really want to crash.
lunch, I rushed to him: how do I to you?
He looked surprised to see me, and then wiped his mouth with a napkin. mouthful of drink.
think, I advise you to go home when a good housewife and then got up and left
.
I was putting on his five angry.
afternoon's work, I care and caution, and finally completed ahead of schedule items submitted to headquarters progress reports of the work, and in accordance with the requirements of the project team, reporting for the precise and beautiful. He patted me on the shoulder hard: Good Job!
rolling his eyes at him I did not before he brushed another flash people. leaving a trace of soap-like taste of grass.
good mood especially good days 【】
LG does not travel, it must then pick me up from work on time, so I said, men want to be your time together, come out anyway, so do not believe what he says
busy, get away, then in a meeting this dog.
smile on my face every day, even for large F and He Ping's stringent requirements, I do not care so much. I then covered in glory glow, walk straight all hum ditty. My confidence has
rekindled, perhaps Koizumi LG said that if she ignored him again, the phrase then worked? Anyway I was grateful to her. I will take her place to love LG.
fact, as long as the intentions of LG a little bit, you will find I am also very cute ah.
LG every day in the car prepare a cup of hot tea, he knows I love to drink. I say thank you LG, very kind of you.
severe, the inviolability of the appearance. I can not dig him more benefits, because sometimes
men always feel so good I can not control, and sometimes worry about the outcome.
I would like to ask Koizumi now occasionally inadvertently how about the business. He was not so disgusted, and said, okay.
He Ping, I will seek advice with a few specialty dishes to please picky stomach LG. He has always been not very good appetite and eat very little . I cook when LG will help me two, will feel good when
arm around my waist from behind, sigh, said: nice.
I guess, LG also did not enjoy it for a long time species of the warmth of the day the bar, with me from day to full of feelings, he suppressed for too long, perhaps tired, I thought, always carries a can not miss
through life, it is the more tired to do ah, but Koizumi has clearly put him down, although I'm not sure is true, but at least that period of recording from the inside,
I feel her rejection of him. If she wanted to, I'm afraid she hook He walked with her fingers. Though the reality is cruel, but if tangled, would not live without it? Although
swing my feelings, but if I can, I want to be a docile wife, inclined to accepted Koizumi's hand injury, he continued that feelings, no matter who, LG
is a very happy man, right?
I believe that He Ping is a very sensitive person, he can feel I am now a happy mood, so I did not bother to do any thing, although still at work he told me
yelling, but as he said: When people look at you all happy happy .
even if I hurry home to cook dinner, he quietly steal overtime to help me finish the job, this is a secret between us. If the Big F knew, would kill me, that < br> old metamorphosis.
a little more curious, he rarely mentioned his wife. I ask MSN, curious, your wife is not very cute.
how you are so curious, he said. has a relationship with you No?
I said: Well talk about.
he had hidden.
his concern to me, always in the right area,. more is not much that a lot. But let me feel security, like no matter what time, when I look back,
I need love, he are.
love the way】 【
days were not calm, if not the ups and downs, it is not necessary written. I look forward to his more than ordinary, tasteless days, though boring, but at least people can go over the next
.
One night we went to the supermarket to buy some daily necessities, is to pick the whole day , LG's phone rang, and then his face changed, and said: how to tell me? When things??
! said a few words and then listen to the other side, he impatiently said, you tell me the line Which? Then he hung up, threw his hand out things go, I am going to run out, he was
think of me, he says you own a taxi home. I said how. He said you do not ask ! I see him frantically look, wearing T-shirts and plaid shorts and sandals as well, even
What to say almost see him figure out.
I stood there a long time, thought, and turned my phone in his friend's phone, the first person: do not know, ah, what happened? I said: Oh, forget it.
second person: he was not in me, I play cards do, how? I said nothing.
until the morning to play to the past, she said: You know?
I said: Where are you?
She said: XX Hospital.
I do not know. but I was scared , if we make him so anxious, went to the hospital, will be Koizumi,,,? I think this soft legs, and finally
make a car, tell the driver the address.
to the hospital, I hurriedly asked the hall, here are not called Koizumi's patients? shaking of the head nurse at a loss.
and very eager to see me the way, she said, had a car accident first came to the rescue, not that you said it ?
I said: do not know, but the operating room where???
I followed where she was referring to, through the long hall, I saw the operating room lights on, front door, dressed in home clothing, slippers, LG arms, Koizumi is holding his tightly.
kept shaking her whole body, I do not know what I like, like a thief hiding, that kind of scene, it seems to me redundant. do not know how long, I heard
see noise, shouting, Koizumi's cry. there were introduced, covered with white cloth, then in bed and covered with blood. I feel stomach convulsions up, I was sweating sweating stops
there, and then I heard loud shouting LG Koizumi, I walked over, like a fool, LG holding Koizumi ran over, ran to and from my side, he did not see me , morning came running from behind and saw me, pushed me. I like the whole portrait floating, does not seem to belong here, like watching all this in a vacuum, no one sees. the last LG I found a cousin , said: wife you are, Koizumi drove his father to see her on the road out of the accident, and now, people are not, and, you or the first back to it.
Oh, good. I agreed with.
whole LG did not come back late, did not give me a call and any messages. is not the case now I have asked him to take care of my emotions is overdone? I dare not call him, I was afraid he was angry, and I carefully, carefully tried to maintain the feelings between us so fragile. as if it flew a little trouble.
day, two days.
the third day his friend came back to take several sets of change of clothes.
he did not say anything? I asked.
Oh, no, that I go first wife.
Oh
my last straw, phone call in the past, did not wait for him to speak, I asked him: Even if another big happened thing, you gotta tell me about it? if I did not call you when you make me wait?
; turn back, I call you sputtered. I can not control their emotions, I do not care. I must find him.
in preparing for the funeral of Koizumi where his father, I see LG, disgraced along busy preparing. I grabbed him.
I like that possessed the same problems that haunt.
He stared at me.
I walked to the door, out
pull me out.
has been side-tracked by his car, he slammed closed the rear door, kicked the accelerator, the car like a fly, like the way he was grinding his teeth, clenched the steering wheel, I know that LG Koizumi There, all the self-esteem have been shattered, and he was so angry, is not concerned about this, I knew that moment, in his heart, Koizumi is not in the past I never go beyond the mountains. Along the way, I calmed down While doing today know too much, but I do not want to admit.
to home, and he fiercely on the couch, lit his cigarette started shaking.
ten minutes, twenty minutes, a long time, we are silent.
later I barely, and I said: I was not deliberately trying to make any trouble, do not want to bother you, I just want you to tell me at least, I fear you are not afraid of you you?
I am also very sad, but you always care about my feelings of the is love? ?? , my pride, and every time he collapsed. I am defeated. then defeated severely at him, I dumped a slap in the face.
licking his lips, gave me a message saying: bitch.
I call the annual leave. lock yourself at home, turn off the phone. draw the curtains, waking up every day to cry, cry to sleep tired, hungry, can not stand to drink it. I like a wilderness man, do not wash your face, without washing, changing clothes. I consider myself imprisoned in a world. who do not want to contact. Then he told me a man, no matter how much you have been hurt, but also to protect themselves as much as possible, to care of their body, care his stomach, cried in a even, clean face, sleep, tomorrow is a new day.
that had less than four days, I find myself not die. because I was constantly ringing of the doorbell fights a splitting head, I staggered to go open the door.
was sent to the hospital, in fact her mother make a fuss, I just lost a lot of fills, low blood sugar only. I gave her mother in the hospital intensive care unit opened in infusion, light pink room exudes a touch of syrup flavor, I think that bed Very comfortable. I stumbled sleep in the past, a sleep and then a nap.
woke up the next day, and especially the sun shining outside, my comfortable yawn, stretch, thought, open the phone.
I count you absent? you.
I took a Huanglian went to work. can not continue to depression, there is still work it will not betray you.
colleagues are concerned to ask, are you ill?
I said no big deal. such care, this should be the closest person to greet should be but are now irrelevant and my people.
He Ping lunch hour sitting next to me, to lose weight go? congratulate you very successful went to the toilet and knocks shook. I am too tired to breathe, pale leaning on the wall out, He Ping standing in the doorway, it was concerned about the seriousness: hey all right?
I shook my head, I need to confirm a , and I was not pregnant? this child is not the time come.
He Ping told me very seriously: whether to go see a doctor.
I said, No, really, nothing at all. < br> He Ping bow of silence, he looked at me very seriously: you do not feel at ease so I go out.
approaching its end.
suddenly feel a little more empty, I looked at him, and he looked at me.
evening after work I went to the girlfriends of the hospital to check there, really pregnant, I do not know joy and sorrow. girlfriends dancing excitement, get my phone to the LG phone calls.
hey,,, I attempt to grab the phone, dialed the phone, she did not know the things between us, I thought to let her know . she was excited to tell him that you want to be a father.
I was silent.
girlfriends blinked at me said: you answer the phone, he said.
me through, said there : If you want me to go back, this approach is really too outrageous.
nothing to say, I hung up the phone.
next day, MSN, and I asked what level, when to go?
he says: Maybe next week.
He Ping in the N city, air and pleasant, very place to live, I just want to see. to a strange city, another person familiar with, when there is something take care of his N-City, is a good choice, however.
just before leaving, I have two things to deal with: first, to resign. Second, I need to have surgery
I know, I know everything, I know the damage this time Koizumi heavier than me, but even if Koizumi is so inconsistent him, scolded him, he quietly guarding her, and the kind of solid all-conquering love. I had to ask the harsh If so, why then abandon her? Why did I marry? Why out of thin air took me sad when a third person? I called you anyone? I have not experienced the best years of your most difficult days, blame me? I only in such an awkward time, became a woman to enjoy all your achievements. I blame myself too confident, if not ignorance at that time, maybe I can marry a man full of all my heart, not so much the deep, but live, warm, loving, steady life. Maybe this time, not locked himself in the dark house, I will bring a smile, and men in the supermarket to buy food, bargain in the commodities market, may hold a child walk outside the sun.
there are some friends, including her mother, advised me that time will also be generous man, and this time they are too petty mind. Everybody suggest me: people have is yours you ask for? in their eyes I'm the most naive, and vexatious people. in their hearts, LG is responsible for more than a good man! they know he told me the cold violence? know the spirit of a man betrayed your pain? Why was subversive truth, I once suspected that he is not wrong.
【Ye Hao, you want a clearer separation report back to the big】
F, when this old guy lug eyebrows looked for a moment and said: Well, for approval. to handover it.
I said thank you, then you're busy.
door big F said: Come to Lei-lei.
not for a while, Lei-lei holding an application form sitting next to me, Jingjing sister, you have to leave??? I said, yes. I do not want to see more than her words, shook the hands of the list, let me apply for large F 1000, called on colleagues to be good to go out better food, hehe.
for this, my nose acid for a moment.
not a wide range of quiet, this time called on the project team to work with seven or eight colleagues, there He Ping. Big F less than eleven and went out. perhaps to give us some free space. Everybody celebrate my misery, Lei-lei said the Beijing-Beijing sister, when I can do ah you are so happy housewife!
I told her that sooner or later the.
He Ping serious eating, I eat. says: that children also require strength.
wanted to come that day he thought I was ready to have children before resignation?
afternoon, I organize the information of electronic documents, MSN message him: this time thank you
take good care of yourself, box, in the parking lot entrance, He Ping standing there smoking. I was surprised. He said: so you came.
help I took the box to the car parking spaces. He wore a fitted smoke gray shirt, sleeves rolled up, release two collar buttons, still a charming demeanor. He pale skin, thin shape looks and even some frail, but very gestures between the man, he was inclined smoking a cigarette, because the hands holding the box, half-blind eyes smoked , as only concentrate on how to engage in technology and a people can not contact with. If I was a little girl in their early 20s, fans will be captivated. I know that Lei-lei was obsessed with him, He Ping it with his own set of very easy ways to resolve this small trouble.
in, clapped her hands, took down cigarette from his mouth, his head twisted to one side threw a complete smoke ring, turned to see me after he vacated his left hand, put my face next, I thought he was going,, Then he stopped, the whole palm of your hand on my face, cover too dark in front of me, I step back, why? He said: This face, a real palm.
hand, it seems I still have to work to lose weight ah the.
you when I asked him to prepare to go back, he said it two days. Then he looked up to heaven, in fact, last week I can go.

will be convenient for you? > and then patted my head, go, bye.
I actually thought he could hold me about the. but no. He turned away.
I looked at the back of some of Zhang lonely man. perhaps his world, there are some can not be said of the experience. just my own story has made me tired, have no energy and interest to explore other people's stories.
【mood】
number in just a few days, the relationship between LG and I can not restore the stalemate to the point. in his heart, I am a have a healthy, money, with all the greed and want to love a woman? he was wronged, he felt that he tried to do the role of a good LG, but I asked more, but in real terms between us is calm, we may be able to live in peace, or even to go on such a premise is the need to accommodate a broad mind with my all, I hurt When not Hantong, I need time to care for their bulging, when I put a person to endure in silence, in order to return he might like it. our love and be loved imbalance, and I do not know Is it really that a woman can be free and easy to do, to equilibrium, at least do not balance.
I know, I know all that, I know the damage Koizumi now more important than me, but even if Koizumi is so inconsistent him, scolded him, he silently guard at her side , the kind of solid all-conquering love. I had to ask harsh, and if so, why then abandon her? Why did I marry? Why out of thin air took me sad when a third person? I called you anyone? I have not experienced your best years, the most difficult days, blame me? I'm just in such an awkward time, became a woman to enjoy all your achievements. I blame myself too confident, if not ignorance at that time, maybe I can marry My heart is full of men, not so much unforgettable, but live, warm, loving, steady life. Maybe this time, not locked himself in the dark house, I will bring a smile, and men in supermarket shopping, bargaining in the commodity market, may hold a child walking in the sun outside.
there are some friends, including her mother, advised me that time also will be a man to be generous, this time care of these too Xiaojiazaiqi. Everybody suggest me: people have is yours, you ask for? in their eyes I'm the most naive, and vexatious people. in their hearts, LG is responsible for more than a good man! they I knew he was cold violence? know a man betrayed the spirit of your pain? Why was subversive truth, I once suspected that he is not wrong.
【Ye Hao, you want to come back after clearly】
leaving the report to the big time F, the old guy lug eyebrows looked for a moment and said: Well, for approval. to handover it.
I said thank you, then you're busy.
door big F said: come to Lei-lei.
not for a while, Lei-lei holding a single sitting next to me to apply, Jingjing sister, you have to leave??? I said, yes. I do not want to see more than her words, shook the hands of the list, let me apply for large F 1000, called on colleagues to be good to go out better food, hehe.
for this, my nose acid for a moment.
not a wide range of quiet, called on the time the project team to work with seven or eight colleagues, are there any level. Big F less than eleven and went out. perhaps to give us some free space. Everybody celebrate my misery, Lei-lei said, Jingjing sister, when I can do ah you are so happy housewife!
I told her that sooner or later the.
He Ping serious eating, I eat. says: that children also need strength The.
wanted to come that day he thought I was ready to have children only to resign?
afternoon, I organize the information of electronic documents, MSN message him: this time thank you
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leave the company, I brought a few boxes of personal belongings, in the parking lot entrance, He Ping standing there smoking. I was surprised. He said: so you came.
help I took the box to the parking . He wore a fitted smoke gray shirt, sleeves rolled up, release the two collar buttons, still a charming demeanor. He pale skin, thin shape looks and even some frail, but very gestures between the man, he was inclined smoking a cigarette, because the hands holding the box, smoked half-blind eye, such as on how to engage in technology and a focus only contact people who are not together. If I was a little girl in their early 20s, fans will be fascinated . I know that Lei-lei was obsessed with him, He Ping with his own set of very easy ways to resolve this small trouble.
between shocked.
he went into the box, clapped his hands to win the cigarette from his mouth, his head twisted to one side threw a complete smoke ring, turned to see me after he vacated left hand, put my face next, I thought he was going,,, and then he stopped, the whole palm of your hand on my face, cover too dark in front of me, I step back, why? He said: This Face , a real palm.
hand, had grown too bitch.
we all laughed.
you when I asked him to prepare to go back, he said it two days. Then he looked up to heaven, in fact, last week I can go the.
, bent down and said very seriously: when is more convenient.
then patted my head, go, bye.
I actually thought he could hold me look into. but no. He turned away.
I looked at the back of some of Zhang lonely man. Maybe in his world, there are some can not be said of the experience. just my own story has made me tired, have no energy and interest to explore other people's stories .
I know that it is very willful, if the time come again, I think no matter how wrong I am fine, LG, that I was threatening him, though, I will tell him that I was pregnant with your child, but I do not want to him. at least I should let him know. but I did not say, no one's told, I think I always have to do something to make LG Xiangqilaijiu regret things later, it is his price. Now that I think At the time I was more ignorant ah, if that time someone told me: kids, all this is not your fault. can touch my head, holding me, give me points in the darkness, a beacon, I would not obstinate in the wrong towards the abyss. I like a dying person, because no one told me that more effort can be as long as you live, so I never give up. So I pushed farther LG, we who no one wants to go back to each other.
Internet search on some of the information to do abortions, select a good reputation and private hospitals. in the doctor's recommendation, I opted for a minimum of physical harm of surgery, said to be able to see the case of materials with a nano-tube direct draw sac. on the uterus will not cause harm. I was feeling hate for LG to the limit, so for me this life is not that human touch . If I do not understand why yourself on how to be so cruel, I did not put him as a child, I decided it was a desire not loved the seed of the woman. He is only a month, just before the small operation indicators. at the appointed time, I am a person signed it, on a cold operating table, even though doctors and nurses are so gracious to take care of me, I did not feel the slightest warmth. just take a nap in the past few minutes, then wake up I've been lying to ward, and waist, abdomen bears covered with massage equipment bags, as if there are numerous little hand gently hammer the waist, massage the abdomen. In addition to backache, I did not feel the discomfort of the other So you can walk in, I can not wait to leave the hospital.
and can not wait to pick up simple clothing, a taxi to the airport.
I think this time, He Ping should have been returned to N City. I said However, every time I need care, need to love, he are.
I give up.
Pro on the plane, my phone call LG, long before he received: ;
.
to N City, just a little more hours, but the sudden arrival of postoperative discomfort, and perhaps it was removed out of the hospital to run around, I really thought that this operation does not impact on the body. belly and waist waves pain comes, let me cold sweat fly from the time my period is extremely poor health, also reached all-time low value of the weight of 86 kg. I am 166 tall.
previous fit as long cardigan like gowns hanging in the body, random hair tie and a half high not low ponytail, and I must have been a pale, slovenly woman. to N City, I sat in the lobby of the airport, sent a text message to He Ping: I have to.
phone soon call back, there came the noise, this time should be in for dinner.
superfluous words, no surprise, no curiosity.
half an hour later he came.
solid round neck T-shirt, white linen shorts, Slop sandals. then the sun but vitality.
I suddenly realized what I dress up, and I'm like a vintage old woman.
Maybe I really was very emaciated, and he frowned hair: how, anyhow?
He single-handedly dragged me, pulled my hand out to the box.
people, simple, low-key.
he would like to ask me anything, I turned to say, I'm not pregnant, I really do not feel well and need a good adjustment.
then he will not speak, I appreciate along the way landscape.
This is a coastal city, the air moist, not wet my imagination, the way people do not hurry do not panic, no big city that seems in a hurry hard look. green building a good, clean to as just sprayed, like water, green and full of life.
good. I mumbled.
large, very simple decoration. He looks like a little house farther away from the city, but see, is a high-end communities.
Local honey, right? Fast thin no more ....